Poor joshy did something to his hands.... I only noticed it tonight after we ate pizza. First I thought he was having an allergic reaction to something in the pizza... I asked him and he said he didnt know but that it wasnt something that happened at school... Then he said he didnt remember... Then he said it was from babs licking him with her sharp tongue... then he said maybe he fell at school.... Finally I said it looked like a burn and asked him if he burnt himself and he said "the water was really really cold. I turned on the cold thing" and i said "did it burn you?" and he said "yeah it was realy hot so I turned the other one on and it was still hot..." So I gather he burned himself...
I put a cold cloth on it for about half an hour or so and gave him some tylenol...
That was it. He hasnt complained or anything but it looks really red still.
Now Im worried...
Chronic worrier that I am...
Man.

I am going to go on jess's recommendation and write some lists...
SO! Im not gonna do the best movies of the last year cause I dont always rent brand new movies and I have a hard time remembering if its new or not when I see one. Plus I havent really seen a lot of really great films in the last while so...
Instead I'll do a list of the best trailors I've seen! Cause man I've seen some gooders!

Top Five Awesome Preview List

5. Beowolf
OK... Im only adding this because I think other people might think this preview is really cool. I on the other hand think its retarded and everytime I hear that guy scream "I am beowolf!" I cant help but roll my eyes. Whatever dude, so your names beowolf. What kind stupid name is that anyways?" And Im sorry but Angelina Jolie is such an awful skank that the thought of her being in any movie automatically turns me off of it. :( Its sad really... I could be missing out on a really good movie just because that dirty baby-adopting, home-wrecking, blowjob-lipped hussy is in it. Way to go Angelina. I dont enjoy movies that rely largely on computer enhancements either... I think thats why I liked "the descent" so much... On the plus side there are these cool little "I Legend"ish ass kicking skeletons in it which might make it worth while...

4. Enchanted
This movie is going to be almost as great as "Cool World" was way back in the day... Cartoons mixed with real people? AWESOME. Cartoons characters turned real people: Even Awesomer. I cant wait to see if they did a great job turning the real characters into their cartoon doppelgangers AND hello!!! Its Disney! Of course its going to be good! Expectations of this film: 4.5/5 Kevin Bacon heads and thats only cause NOBODY gets 5/5! And thats also just how much I think others will like it because although it looks good, I prefer horror or suspense movies over family movies...

3. Awake
Oh.My.God. Worst fears realized when I saw this preview... And the statistics backing it are freaky!!! I've had three surgeries that required me to go "under" and I dread there ever being another after seeing the clip for this movie... I'm SO stoked about this one.... Film expectations: 4/5 Kevin Bacon Heads.

4. I Am Legend
WOOHOOOOOOO! Will Smith returns! This movie looks hella good... It sort of reminds me of 28 days later... The whole idea of one or two people being left on a planet and having to fight off zombie like creatures... I've seen the preview on several occasions and Im thinkin its gonna be a good one... Expectations of the film: 4/5 Kevin Bacon Heads...

5. Cloverfield
Well anyone who's someone KNOWS that cloverfield would have to top the list of awesome previews ever... The question is, will it be able to back up all the hype its created with the teaser trailors and hush hush gossip? When I first saw it I was like "uhhhuhuhuhuh that looks freaking awesome" but was disturbed to find NO title! So of course my wonderfully sexy nerd of a boyfriend looked up the release date and lo and behold we found that it was being called "Cloverfield" or "1-18-08". I of course assumed after the first trailor that it was going to be another remake of Godzilla... I especially assumed this as the main character was supposed to be going to japan... And then of course there's the poster showing rippled in the water heading towards the city but people keep saying "Its NOT godzilla its not godzilla" So.... We'll see I guess. If it turns out it IS godzilla I will be exceptionally disappointed. Exceptionally.
Movie Expectations: 4.5/5 Man it better be good!

Honourable Mentions:
Terminator Salvation, 21, and Juno.... They all look pretty good. Well Im assuming with the third terminator as the trailor isnt even out yet....

Had awesome previews but ended up sucking:

5. Hairspray. I thought it looked good... I'd never heard of it before or seen the original so I didnt know what to expect. For some reason I was thinkin really good choreography and a "grease" feel to it but... It was disappointing on so many levels. Sorry to those of you who thought this was so wonderful....
4. 30 days of night. Josh Hartnet, vampires, blood in the SNOW... I dont know how it didnt come together but it just left me... yawning.
3. I know who killed me. Damn! I saw the preview and despite it having lindsay lohan as the main character, I had hopes! Stupid me...
2. Premonition: I thought it was gonna be so good but it was confusing and dry.... booring. I shoulda seen THAT coming...
1. Transformers. It looked so cool but wasnt nearly as good as anticipated. However Megan Fox- truly a fox. Giggity giggity!!!


Movies that ROCKED:

Babel
28 Weeks Later
Disturbia (surprisingly decent)
1408
300
Sicko
Pans Labrynth

HOOORAY FOR MERRITT 2007!!!!
I AM SO STOKED!
I cant wait!
Not only is Gretchen gonna be there but REBAS GONNA BE THERE TOO!
OHMIGOD!
I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts on 2006:
Best memory from 2006: I would definately hafta say that my favourite memory is going to Merritt with my girls. BOOYAH. Memories galore!!!

Worst memory from 2006: Hitting that guy in January... Really bad bad memory...

Favourite thing I bought: I'd hafta say my MP3 player. I love that thing... Its been so damn useful!

I’m sorry I didn’t buy: a bathing suit that I like... I hate the ones I have...

I’m proud that I: got a decent paying job and finally got myself independent again!!! Sorta....

I wish I hadn’t: Ever moved in with Lou... That includes living with her on Harmston. Shouldnt have ever done that. Bah.

Now, on to my hopes for 2007:

My goal(s) for 2007:
I hope I:
- lose at least 20 pounds in 2007
- continue my good job and get rid of my crappy job.

I’m scared I will get stuck in another living situation I am unhappy with.

I can’t wait for MERRITT 2007! WOOOTAH!!!!

I’d really like a new body for 2007!

The big thing I plan to buy is: My tickets to merritt... hehe. Are we seeing a theme yet?

I swear, I.... Will TRY my best NOT to swear! IM TRYING! ITS HARD!!!

BOOYAH BITCHES!
ok.
Time to update!
Hung with Kate a few days back... Right before Christmas. It was good times. This is how the night went. Went to her parents house. Said hello. Bandit barked at me. We wandered over to the Leeward to have homous and pita. GOOD STUFF. Chatted. Drove for a bit. Went to the lorne to say hi to les. Then decided to head to my place for a few minutes (and by my I meant the rents) to see Brandon who was staying there (nother long story). So we pull into grams driveway and go to back out only to have a drunk brandon jump on the back of my car. kate opens the door to let him in and he says "i need to go to the hospital". Kate's all "Bran needs to go to the hospital." and lets him into the backseat of my car. I'm like "what??" Brandons like "yeah... hearing ringing in my ears... Might pass out... Dont know if my baby finger is still attatched to the rest of my hand" I'm like "WHAT?" turn around and see him holding his hand. I look and sure enough he's sliced his baby finger WIDE OPEN on the medal slider that runs down the side of my car. Hes bleeding all over the place so off we go to the emergency room. We get inside, I see him dripping blood all over the floor and almost pass out. It reminds me of when Amy was having Brooklyn and they missed her vein and injected her hand with fluid. It puffed all up and I almost passed out then for some reason... Me and mom both! hahahaha. That sucked. Anyways. We werent in the emerg for even 15 minutes and he was stitched and we were on our way to Drews... Hung out there while everyone (but me) drank. Watched Jackass 2 again. Man that shit is NASTY! Anyways...
Good times....
Did the usual christmas stuff... Went to church. There was only like 25 people there. I was a lil disappointed... Drew came though so that was cool. Then we drove and looked at lights... Joshy and I slept at drews... alex was with her mom at chads. We went to moms in the am and opened presents...From mom I got a scrapbooking package... two sweaters... hmmm. what else... My sis got me fire and ice... I got some blingy jewelry too... And they paid for my snow tires and glasses as part of my christmas present. Anyways... Grams got me some stuff from the body shop... GG sent me over $50... Lou bought me some glade plugins and gave me the music note ornament and a photo of her and josh...Jeanette got me a brown half sweater which I adore and some chocolates... Drews kids got me J Lo's Still perfume... Drew got me magazines and stocking stuff, AND my best present ever... A CERTIFICATE FOR BLACK ROSE TO GET A NEW TATTY! YAY! I'm so stoked... I'm torn between getting a new quote such as "Its amazing, how in the blink of an eye you finally see the light" OR "No key required, the door to happiness is never locked." Something inspirational. OR.... betty boop. I dunno yet. I've ALSO toyed with the idea of getting some more chinese writing on my OTHER shoulder... that'd be cool and I'd have enough $ to do a quote on my foot AND the chinese symbols... I might hafta check and see if that jay dude is gonna be spotlightin at all... That'd be hella wicked...
ok.
What else.
Amy had brooklynn. i dont remember if I wrote about that or not... I wasnt there so Im not gonna carry on about it. I mean I was there for part of it but I didnt rank to stay long enough to witness the birth. I was in charge of the other kids while they slept. But anyways.
What else... Hmmmm. OH! I got the keys to my new place today. Hooray for that. I needed out of my parents house... I started moving stuff in today. richard my landlord seems pretty decent... AND its affordable. hooray for that!!!
I should get to bed cause its almost minight and I hafta work tomorrow but I felt the need to update.. (I had some verbally abusive posts that demanded I update as well so that always helps!) hehe.
Anyways...
JANUARY IS COMING!!!!
Its a WHOLE new year.
Anybody doin anything interesting on the eve of???
Lookin for ideas on how to spend that night....
Thats all for now.

oh I forgot to add something...... Started workin at the ministry on the 14th of November... Just wanted to make a note of the date so I can remember when I started the best job I ever had.

Wow its been ages since I updated in here... Im so neglectful. Good thing I dont have children eh? Oh shit... wait... i DO have a kid... Wish I could remember his name! Its hard only seeing him once in a blue moon. All I do is work work work! Ministry mornings and Wally evenings and weekends... I keep tryin to remind myself I have to suck it up cause its gonna get us further ahead but sometimes I wonder if its really worth it.... I miss that lil bugger... :(
It just started snowing.
My mom and dad haven't had power since 2 pm on Monday... Poor bastards. I dont remember there ever being a storm like this. Its like.... The day after tomorrow or something! Ahhh! Damaging winds are occurring or imminent in our region right now.
Drew's all moved into the new house. We had the kids all here last night and we painted christmas ornaments and decorated the tree... It was like... real family. I love it. I LOVE DREW!
Drew's staff party is tomorrow... The wally christmas one was last sunday... The ministry one was last friday but I didnt make it.... I also went to Ann and peter's party last week... I think it was on the 6th... It was good times.
My birthday this year was good. Dont think I've updated since then.... went to boston pizza for dinner and then to gullys. GOOD TIMES. Got shittered... lol. I love being drunk. Good thing I am aware of the history of alcoholism in my family. I avoid it. Prolly drink three times a year... Brandon showed up. Apparently he and jasmine have a lil crush on each other which didnt stop him from sucking face with Jen R on the dance floor.... TO THE DANCE AT THAT! I danced with Drew... I love him.... He bought me a christmas tree for my desk at work! I love it! Its a great lil fiberoptic do-dad.... He's so goddamn sweet to me.
His dad returned from Mexico and his mommys leaving for England pretty soon.....
What else is new... Candy went to the hospital yesterday but cause she was only 4 cm and her contractions had pretty much stopped they sent her home. Her and amy are about to pop. Gram flew to Calgary to be with her... Thank god. I cant believe aunty cheryl didnt. How awful.
Just found out Gretchen Wilson is headlining merritt this year so I am there with bells on damnit!
What else to report.... My finger hurts. I have a cut under the nail and ohmigod it sucks.
Brandons done with Jen done with Lisa... Hasnt mentioned Jazz since he started seeing this chick named Jillian.... She's SO awesome etc. So thats.... great. He's living with Jen and Ad.... Whom I saw the other day...
Im getting fat again. Seriously. I need to get a grasp on my eating again really soon. I dont wanna set myself up for disappointment so Im not gonna start around Christmas but January is a new begining right? Eeeeexactly....
PLUS I NEED TO START TAKIN ALL THEM DAMN PILLS AGAIN. Make me normal. hehe.
Ok.
Im ending here... I dont feel so guilty now that I wrote all the above crap.
Just wanna add a lil shout out to Jess and Jenn... The only two who even read this anymore. lol.

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don't see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don't you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we're not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won't take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don't want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

OOh!
Costumes from friday... Duty manager kim dressed as a leopard... Duty Manager Mark was "miss walmart" and wore a stunning blue gown with heels and a blonde wig (nothing like yer gorgeous blonde wig). Philip from pets (used to be seasonal i think) dressed as a woman. Leaha from the photo department dressed as a bumble bee... Jenn from the portrait studio dressed as marilyn monroe (it was hot)..The new girl in the portrait studio was a pumpkin... Kayla the cashier dressed up as one of the girls from 'Deal or No Deal'.... So basically she looked like she always does (pretty) and carried a silver cutout brief case... Good times... They decorated the back with ghosts and such (it looked cool) and did a bbq of perogeys and keilbassa... It was ok... lol. I'm gonna dress up as an angel tomorrow provided I can find a costume this late in the game... I still hafta get candy to hand out here for the neighbourhood kids too... Hmmm. I think I will copy and paste this in my journal as an update... Since i typed so much...

Date:	2006-10-26 14:59
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Mood:	full
Music:	sins not tragedies- panic at the disco

Bah!
Ok.
Been a while since I posted...
What to say...
Went for breaky on sunday with drew his mom and our kids...
It was quite nice. Then we bowled together too. Poor joshy... He can barely lift the balls and he kept insisting on picking up the green ones which are super heavy... He's so cute...
I love that kid...
Then it was the begining of Drew's week with the kids... Sara had them last week... they're gonna try this week on week off stuff. We'll see how it goes...
They've HOPEFULLY sold the house. YAY!!!!
Drew's goin to look at a place tonight... That'd be so damn awesome if he's outta there... Then I can spend the night whenever I want.
WOOHOO!
Aunty Lori is down. We went for lunch at the Atlas today with aunty cheryl and grandma. good times...
I hafta work in 45 minutes. BOOOOO.
OH!
And I had an interview at the Ministry on tuesday afternoon. Had a typing test for them on wednesday which I passed. My next interview is on the 1st. I would LOVE to get a job doing typing... Man oh man... Anyways... I'll keep you all posted on that...
What else...
Brandon has been down several times in the last week to hang with josh... That's nice... He and Lisa are tryin to fix things which is also nice... He's also applyin for a job at Lordco cause he got "laid off" from knappett.... Anyways...
I'll write again another time...

OK.
So.
Like ohmigod.
Went to gullys last night. Had a HELLA good time... Worked till 330 then headed up to cumberland to see candy for a bit. Then I picked Jaz up at her house and we headed back to my place. Drew arrived a short time later and while we waited for him to get ready Jaz talked to Rob (dude from CR) and then Mike... (EM). Anyways. SO.
We went to Mikes place above subway across from the driftwood mall. Hung out... Had a few drinks. Jaz and I had already had 5 shots each so we were well on our way... We finally convinced mike to come out... Drew drove and we headed to gullys. GOOD TIMES!!! We danced and had shooters and got blitzed...
This chick Sara who drew knows from the video store was there. Shes super sweet and I quite like her... Also saw Chris from the washinton there... He's cool shit...HAHAH Sara was hanging out with mike duncan and kim anderson... That was too funny. I dont know why I found them so attractive.... Really.... Its weird.
Anyway we were outside waitin for a cab (mike rode the bull and even danced!) then left around 1ish... We went outside when the bar closed down to wait for a cab. Some asshole did somethin to a cop car that resulted in a flat tire. Anyway she comes raging over screamin that anybody who doesnt disappear within the next five minutes is gonna be arrested and thrown in the drunk tank... Somebodys like "were waitin for taxicabs" and she's like "I dont care. Get out of here. Everyone."
I could not even BELIEVE this so I started spoutin off about how I wasnt fuckin goin anywhere and how I was waitin for my goddamn cab and if she was gonna arrest me she better have herself a lawyer and a publicist cause if she arrests me for NOT drinking and driving and for PATIENTLY AND GOOD NATUREDLY waiting for a cab she's gonna have some SPLAININ to do. Lucky for her (and prolly for me) our cab arrived shortly after but there was no fucking way I was goin anywhere. I ordered a cab to gullys and I was waitin there. I wasnt leavin for nothing.
Stupid bitch cop. I'm so angry just thinkin about it right now. I'm gonna write a letter to the editor about it...
Anyways...
Started bowling again tonight. It was good. Did 220 my first game! Fun stuff... What else.... Not much else goin on....
OH! Im down 2 after a week. What the hell!!!!

Also dont know if I wrote about it or not but on Friday brandon came and hung out with me and josh. arrived at 12:30 at mcdonalds and left around 5 that evening. We went to mcdonalds, fish hatchery, took josh to the air park to ride his bike, then drove to campbell. It was a nice pleasant visit...
Got the $40 owed for moving all that stuff to the dump that day too.
Nice.

Please send an encouraging message to a friend or family member as I have done...
I don't care if you lick windows,
interfere with farm animals or
occasionally shit yourself.
You hang in there sunshine,
you're fucking special.

Date:	2006-09-30 21:27
Subject:	And just in case any of you have forgotten the embarassing move I made when breeding with brandon..
Security:	Public
Mood:	high
Music:	hold my beer- aaron pritchett

Brandon spent all day today (saturday) fishing at puntledge river less than five minutes from where his son LIVES. He didnt bother coming by or even calling to inquire about his son... He just gets more and more dead to me as the days go by... I cant believe I bred with such a disgusting loser...

HINDER LYRICS

"Better Than Me"

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

Date:	2006-09-30 09:25
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	exanimate
Music:	Better than me-Hinder (my new fave song)

OK. So I've decided that eating chocolate before I go to bed is whats givin me crazy dreams...
Last night I dreamt I was pregnant... I decided to buy a test and I took it while I was climbing up this mountainhouse... I say mountain house because it was HUGE and built right down the center of this mountain. It was INSIDE the mountain. And there was this path going all the way up to the top and every so often you'd see a door or a window and that's how you got inside the house. Once I was inside the house it was just like a normal house except HUGE... OH! And my parents owned this house... They bought it cause all the sudden they're rich... So Im inside this house, I take the test, it says Im pregnant but that my body is having a miscarriage... So I refuse to do anything cause I want to rest so that my body doesnt abort this baby... I could feel it moving in my tummy... It was awesome... And I knew that the reason my body was tryin to get rid of this baby was because there was something unhealthy about it... I knew this cause I didnt feel nauseous... I told Drew about the baby and he didnt seem to care... No good feelings no bad feelings... I was really excited though... Then I had to go to this hospital so they could take care of me or something but I was waiting for this team to lead me to the bottom of the mountain so I wouldnt get lost. And while I was waiting there were all these pigeons coming in the room I was in... so I got my cousin billy to get them out again... I hate pigeons...
Anyways....
It was totally screwy....
Now Im awake... Washing my sheets and goin for a bath cause Lou brought josh in with me last night and he pissed all over everything. How disgusting. Not too many things grosses me out more than wakin up covered in cold baby piss...
Ugh.

Date:	2006-09-29 08:54
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

So creepy dream number three. I was floating (at april point maybe?) on air mattress off this dock… It was a resteraunt.. I was there with Drew and my cousin Cynthia and a bunch of other people.. My grandma and them… I ordered something called a safety burger and it cost $14… I was very disgusted that I had to eat while floating on an air mattress… Drew and I floated over to this wooden dock where we could walk… We got up and there was this tent there set up.. Drew grabbed a bunch of these boxes that had pictures of cartoon worms on the outside of them… He said they were only $5 each and that he was getting them for alex for Christmas… I said I had forgotten how close Christmas was so I better look for something for Josh… I went into the same tent to try and find a puzzle. They only had one but it was 100 pieces… I didn’t want to get it for josh cause I though it would be too easy for him. The guy selling it to me was a Mexican dude… He told me that my kid would LOVE the puzzle that it was just like jumanji. I told him my kids way too smart to play jumanji….We get back on the air mattresses and float to Royston beach.. When we get there we’re thrown up onto this huge rock wall where we climb down safely to the beach… when Im down I look at the water and its scary. The waves are massive and Im glad I escaped… We go to Nannys house… I go inside and I see my nanny. She’s in the kitchen… Everyones trying to get her to give them certain items from the house… She’s making pies… I go over to her and hug her… I don’t let go right away. I hold her really tight and she lets me… I start crying and I say “I know your leaving Nanny. I just wanna hug you.” And she just hugs me tight then lets go… She says go see your father…I go to the bathroom to wipe my eyes and am not worried about someone thinking I’ll steal something cause I’ve placed cameras everywhere to cover my own butt… I go back into the living room… The one by the sliding doors… I see my dad.. He’s laying between nanny and grampy. He looks like he’s trying to go to sleep… He’s spread out between them… I go over and cuddle up behing his knees like I used to do when he’d fall asleep on the couch in Whitehorse… He’s SO warm and Im so comfortable being close to him… Somehow at this point of the dream I become aware that Nanny and Grampy are both dead but that they came back as spirits to hold my dad… My mom comes over and says “Your dad has Atchitis… It’s something you get when you’ve had several heart attacks and it just makes him sleep and off he goes…” And I was crying but I just held on to my dad…. And I could feel the warmth from him and nanny and grampy together… I just sat there and cried.. and held onto him… Then I woke up.
Now HOW SCREWED UP is that dream????? Scares me kinda. Think I’ll call and make sure dad’s ok. :S Weird….

Date:	2006-09-28 10:15
Subject:
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Mood:	apathetic
Music:	stars are blind-paris hilton!

I had some screwy dreams last night... One was at stokem falls... I was there with my sister and my mom and a bunch of other people who I didnt know but yet again it was a "merritt" setting... Everyone was drinkin and stuff... Anyways somebody put a baby in a shopping cart and the shoppin cart was being pulled down the falls. I could see this baby comin down the river directly towards this HUGE drop off and nobody was trying to grab it or anything so I was yelling at the people closest to it to "grab her! grab her!" and none of them wanted to take a chance at being pulled over the falls WITH the cart she was in.... So she fell over one set of falls in the cart, didnt tip over or anything but she was screaming. So despite thinking I'm going to for sure drown I jump in and grab her and bring her to the side of the water... Then this native guy comes and he's high, I can smell pot on him, and he reclaims the baby. And all I do is say "next time be more careful. that baby is a human life you know"... Anyways then I woke up and I was SO scared for some reason... I mean I looked around my room and I knew where I was and stuff but I was so scared for some reason... Then lou got up to go to the bathroom... So I felt a little better. but when she went back to bed she closed her door. So I felt scared again. And of course josh is one one of his little kicks about not wanting to sleep with me so I was all by myself... Then I kept hearing this sound from my tv... but it wasnt on.... THEN I went to sleep again and I had another dream. This time I was in high school again and Drew was one of my teachers... And he was wearing the sexy pants... and making jokes... and he was like one of the student teachers that every kid in the damn school gets a crush on... Anyways I was worried that people were gonna think I got a good grade because he was my teacher and I was sleeping with him... Then the bell rang and I had to figure out where my next class was and I just knew I was gonna be late... And Drew couldnt kiss me or anythin because someone might see and he "was married" so it wouldnt look good for his FAP whatever the hell an FAP is..... Anyways...

Date:	2006-09-26 17:38
Subject:	Ok.. So...
Security:	Public
Mood:	restless
Music:	concrete angel-marinta mcbride

Today I worked 12-5... It was an uneventful shift...
My wisdom tooth hurts... Goddamnit.
Drew spent the night last night... Good times... We took Josh to wally so drew could get new clothes... He was so good...
I dunno if I posted about him falling and bashing his head the night before... at valleyview... Me and Jess were doin the wig exchange and BAM he fell and did quite the number to his head on the pavemenet... I took him to the hospital (being the paranoid mother I am) but he was fine...
That jordan kid keeps coming over every five seconds to play with josh and I can tell Lous annoyed... Unfortunately I think its good for him to socialize with other little kids so I let him play when Im home... They're really good... Except for when Josh is being a butthole... They played for an hour in the back yard with no fights or anything.. Collecting bugs and such.
Aunty Marilyn called to invite me to Celeste's birthday party. Unfortunately for me I hafta work from 12-9. Frig its a long shift... I hate that one... Especially on a saturday... PLUS I hafta work on sunday as well. BOOOOOO!
What else to report... Tara and Jules arent talking anymore. Ha. Serves them right...
haha jordan just showed up. ive only been home like half an hour...
They're gonna play...
Lou wants to go to Nanaimo tomorrow. I dont think Im up to that but we'll see... I friggen hate being broke and Wonderdad hasnt paid anything since he gave me $75 at the begining of july... I just paid my portion of the rent so Im once again broke as broke... BAH!
Anywhooooosers....
Nuff bitchin for now.
Gonna go chill...

Date:	2006-09-24 12:36
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry
Music:	lous stuff... whatever it is...

OH I AM SO ANGRY!
My aunt jackie is a dirty fat greedy bitch. Worse than Marilyn EVER was. The will was read after the memorial tea last week and it states in there that Nanny leaves all her jewellery to jackie. I thought "Phew now we dont hafta fight over who gets the engagement rings" cause jackie really wanted them but that family can be so greedy I didnt know if the others would put up a fight. Anyways. So I'm all happy about it, Jackie finds out that she's entitled to ALL of it and instead of just being like "right on I got the rings I wanted" she INSTEAD demands that EVERYONE WHO TOOK ANY JEWELLERY BRING IT BACK CAUSE ITS HERS!!!!! CAN YOU FRIGGEN BELIEVE THAT??? Not only does she do THAT but she has nerve to say that MY SISTER AND I STOLE IT and that there was all kinds of theiving going on at the house that day!!! I CANNOT FUCKING BELIEVE WHAT A TRECHEROUS SNAKE WOMAN SHE IS. I hate her. I detest her with every fiber of my being... Before I continue I MUST add that the jewellery we're talking about, the stuff that my sister, me and my cousins were GIVEN by our OTHER aunt, was all costume jewellery... Not worth anything (at least not to my knowledge). Jackie was all fine with us dividing it as long as SHE got the engagement rings but as soon as she knows it was LEFT to her she demands it ALL back. She could have said "Keep one item that reminds you of nan and bring the rest back" BUT NO! She wants it ALL back. AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT HER ACCUSING US OF STEALING!!! WHAT A FUCKING SLUTBAG! NEVER in a MILLION years would I STEAL- ESPECIALLY FROM MY OWN GODDAMN FAMILY!!!! I cant believe what a selfish bitch she is. Im embarassed to be related to her. My aunty lynn (the only NORMAL one in the family) already said a million times that she TOLD US TO TAKE THE JEWELLERY cause after Jackie got rid of all nans clothes she wanted to make sure we received anything that had sentimental value to us before Jackie turfed it to the sally anne... And not only that, after I was given the rings I SHOWED them to yoka... I went right up to her and showed them to her cause I thought they were pretty... I just cant even believe that... But what pisses me off the MOST is I was greeter at work last night and Jamie and Megan came in. So I said "hey" and waved at them and Jamie just said "hey." and didnt even look at me, didnt even stop just kept walking by. TOTALLY snubbed me!!!! I cant even BELIEVE THAT!!! Despite thinking Jackie is a loose, peanut butter-spread her legs for anybody whore, I STILL continued to be polite to her so I could continue having a relationship with my cousins. And to have him snub me like that hurt. I just cant believe he'd believe I STOLE. And michelle!!! THAT BITCH! Shes just a puppet on strings... Jackie's little marionette doll... I'm SO disappointed in her... Once all is said and done Im pretty sure that family doesnt exist to me.
I miss my nanny and grampy like hell... :(